Tuesday, July 31, 2007,2:10 PM
Living it up in the sun
Aperitif on the Beach!

For those of you who don't know, Aperitif, or what it means to us here in Italy anyways, is like drinks hour, before dinner, like 6-8pm... you usually pay a fixed amount and there's a buffet and music.
They do this all over Rome, in loads of bars, and now on the beach too....

So... imagine sipping your drink, in a bikini, as the sun starts to set and all the warm, tanned bodies on the dance floor.... and the music is blaring. Loungey, or funk or house music.

I love it!

We had a ball. It marks the official start to the holiday... well sort of!
Francesco and his friend are off on vacation on Thursday, which means I probably won't seem him 'till sept at least... if not October. He's off without a return date seeing as he just graduated college.
I'm off on vacation on Saturday, so with this all in mind, I'm leaving home behind and am just going to enjoy myself and forget about work, my family, traffic, possible flirtations and annoying exes!!

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007,1:03 PM
Letting hope lead the way
I was talking to my friend Ashley, who also recently dumped by her boyfriend. Now given that she's only 19 and that her "relationship" lasted only a few weeks, I couldn't help but ponder on some things.

I was trying to comfort her, and in doing so I realized as few things myself.
She was talking about how she'd come to realize that certain things happen for a reason and that she knew that, eve though she didn't want it to be over, even though she was hurting, she was going to accept her fate and move on. She knew that she was going to be ok.

I wrote to her and congratulated her on her wisdom.
I told her that wisdom is a good thing. I told her how happy I was that she was able wash away her troubles and look to a bight new day for comfort.

As a good friend told me, life has a way of working itself out... I pray God that it will work for me too.
I too need to find my own path again and move forward.
It's not easy but if we hope and try, and do our best, then we'll have done our duty.
Because after all, trying and hoping is all we can really do.

Right??
= )

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Friday, July 20, 2007,1:27 AM
restless
I'm not very talkative lately.
I'm up and down these days. Good at times, thoughtful at others...
I wouldn't say I'm sad, or upset, but there are still some things unresolved in my life. I'm still trying to figure out wtf is up with my ex, and why he won't send me my things.

I'm trying to let go and move on, but it's hard. I'm always wanting to know what's going on and what he's up to, who he's doing it with etc. I'm only causing myself pain, yet I keep doing it.
Why are women so masochistic at times?

Plus, I have all these ideas in my head of things I'd like to do, or not do, and they all contradict one another. I want to buy a new scooter, 'cause my old one is falling apart. I want to buy a car 'cause I'm tired of having to share my mom's with my brother and sister...
I want to move and find a better job, but I don't know if I really want to do it.
I want to leave Rome, but I want to stay.

I dunno. It's like I want to do it all, but nothing at the same time. I'm not sure it makes any sense but I think I've lost my direction. I've lost my drive. I feel restless and all sorts of messed up, like the picture of the closet you see above.
Plus, add on that my selfishness.... I just don't want to have to deal with my family ya know?
I'm so ready to move out, yet I have no money to do any of the above...

I'm really counting the days 'till my vacation. I think leaving town for a week will do me good.


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Wednesday, July 11, 2007,12:52 PM
Lilli Allen ~ Smile

Lily Allen Lyrics

When you first left me
I was wanting more
But you were f**king that girl next door
What'cha do that for?
(What'cha do that for?)
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
Never been on my own that way
Just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends,
I found the light in the tunnel at the end
And now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
It's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile
Yeah, it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean that
No it don't mean that (no it don't mean that)
I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself
I See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends,
I found the light in the tunnel at the end
And now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
It's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile
Yeah, it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile
Yeah, it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile
Yeah, it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

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