Saturday, December 30, 2006,12:10 AM
Somtimes we make mistakes, even though we don't want to...

. : Westlife - I Dont Wanna Fight : .

I can't sleep, everything I ever knew
Is a lie without you
I can't breathe when my heart has broke in two
There's no beat without you

You're not gone but you're not here
At least that's the way it seems tonight
If we could try to end these wars
I know that we can make it right
Cos baby….

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness that's in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you
I don't wanna have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So I'm hoping we can start tonight
Cos I don't wanna fight no more

How can I leave, when everything that I adore
And everything I'm living for
Girl it's in you
I can't dream, sleepless nights have got me bad
The only dream I ever had is being with you

I know that we can make it right
It's gonna take a little time
Let's not leave ourselves with no way out
Let's not cross that line


Remember that I made a vow that I would never let you go
I meant it then, I meant it now
And I wanna tell you so


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Monday, December 25, 2006,3:09 PM
It's Christmas all over the world...

Originally uploaded by Mulia.
yet another normal day here in sunshinecity's household.
Though my family doesn't celebrate Christmas or exchange gifts, I've always inevitably felt the Christmas atmosphere. You can't not feel it. Where ever you go, in the streets, in stores, to friends' houses, in restaurants all the decor and lights remind you of one of the biggest global holidays there are today.
It's a holiday that has been celebrated for over 2000 years and as far as I can remember, it's always seemed so appealing to me. The bright lights, the smell of burning wood, roasted chestnuts and the crisp winter air all have a magical feel to it, you can't help be part part of it.

Though I have never celebrated it, when I went over to the US, two years ago, I celebrated my first American Christmas. Some things are different from Italy, that's obvious. The different traditions are so curious and fun. The atmosphere that you breath in American households over Christmas is something hard to describe. I don't think any American can fully understand what it's like to grow up and be surrounded by the American way of life being portrayed in every movie you ever see, or in every product you ever buy. I'm not saying this is a bad thing, or a good thing, but the American way of life, at least here in Europe has been a role model, a stereotype by which past generations (those who grew up during WWII) have measured themselves up to and by which standards they've lived by or aspired to.

It was such a weird feeling to actually live this, to actually be part of it, rather than just witness it. When we say "oh you only see that in the movies" it seems like a cliche, but never in my life have I been so surprised to find that what you see in American movies actually happens exactly how you see it. All those traditions, the colours the atmosphere, really exist!
Like I said, it's something an American can't understand. No culture has travelled across the global and been an example for others as much as the American Way of Life has.
I don't think many comprehend what impact the US' presence in WWII has had. If you ask my Grandma she will tell you what it's like to have to hide and witness with your own eyes, through the tiny windows in the confining walls of a convent - her safe house - the arrival of the American troops, freeing the city and watch them as they chase the Germans away with their tanks.
That will inevitable leave a mark in your heart.

So two years ago, when I actually was part of this culture that I've always been surrounded by but never been part of, it was like living a dream. I fitted right in, as if I'd been celebrating it all my life. It was my first holiday with Michael, so of course its meaning was much more important to me than the significance of the actual holiday itself. The first celebration with a loved one, in their home, with his family. It was priceless.

Last year, we promised ourselves that it would be our last Christmas apart, hoping, almost knowing that by the summer we'd be together for good. Unfortunately things didn't turn out as we'd hoped. We're still apart and still waiting on this pending VISA.

Unfortunately this year didn't bring all it was supposed to. I had high hopes for 2006. I had high expectations and am a little less confident because of it. I've always been a "glass half full" kind of girl... still am for the most part, but when it comes to my future, to my aspirations and true personal desires, there's somewhat left to be desired in the optimism department.
As all of you make your way to or back from family celebrations, as all of you unwrap your presents and make wishes for the year to come, as all of you pray for next year to bring bigger and better things I too say a little prayer. I have a lot to be thankful for but...
May 2007 be my year.

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Thursday, December 21, 2006,12:47 AM
Let There Be Love - Westlife

Let there be you,
Let there be me.
Let there be oysters
Under the sea.

Let there be wind,
An occassional rain.
Chile con carne,
Sparkling champagne

Let there be birds
To sing in the trees,
Someone to bless me
Whenever I sneeze.

Let there be cuckoos,
A lark and a dove,
But first of all, please
Let there be love.

Let there be cuckoos,
A lark and a dove,
But first of all, please
Let there be love

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006,11:25 PM
DJ Michael Hardset's first ever Italian gig!!

If you happen to find yourself in the Eternal City, you cannot miss out!!!

For more info - just contact me or DJ Michael Hardset at

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Monday, December 18, 2006,12:53 AM
a 365 day photojournal.
I've taken on a big task.... I've decided to try and be comitted to this. I'm going to start an online daily photo diary of the year 2007.
I'm doing this through a group on flickr, but i'm going to post everything here too.

This is how it works:
I will post one, (and only one !) photo for each day of 2007 that will represent my day or its highlight. I can add text if I want, about my day, or not.
Everybody can post messages and comments.

Philosophy :
"This project is for firstly for yourself .
If you don't get that, you'll quickly stop, believe me.
People might have different reasons to do it.
I personally see this as an opportunity, in one year, to look back at what was 2007 for me. What it was made of.
So, if I'm in an office for 3 months, there will surely be 3 months of office pictures. Boring... as life in an office... as my life would maybe have been during those 3 months. But that's what it was, and that's what I have to show if I want to be able to look back on what my year really has been.

It's a really hard project to do until the end.
You'll have to take ONE PICTURE A DAY, every day, all year long. Whatever your mood is, whatever your life is like, whatever you go through, whatever free time you have. But in the end, I think it's worth it.
Think about this really seriously before jumping in.
Don't forget : you'll need to have a camera with you EVERY SINGLE DAY an entire year long. But if one day you don't have it, do not forget your cellphone might take pictures too !

And feel free to gather around and leave comments on other's topics."
- taken from the Flickr My 2007 Daily Photo Diary group.

I dunno, this sounds cool to me. I've seen other people do it, in some form or another.
I know there is a lot waiting to happen for me in 2007, firstly the beginning of the actual year... it'll be spent with my fiance. That's definately something new.
Be sure to come back as of January 1st 2007 and check on my photojournal: ~ sunshinecity - a picture, a story ~ !!

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Sunday, December 10, 2006,4:53 PM
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It's that simple... that's all it takes.
You never know who you might be helping!

Thank you

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That's all it takes.... please help today!

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,12:45 PM
Apparently this is who I look like...

Anyone agree???
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Friday, December 08, 2006,1:05 AM
Messin' around...
You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few
What Kind of Blogger Are You?

oh I highly doubt that!


You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"
What Japanese Smiley Are You?

uhh... sure! lol


You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.
What Temperment Are You?

ok, this one is soooo true!


You Are 64% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.
How Open Minded Are You?

Yep, true!


You Are 64% Brutally Honest

Most of the time, you tell it like it is. Even if it's hard for people to hear.
Sometimes you hold back though, because you never want your honesty to be hurtful.
How Brutally Honest Are You?

pretty accurate....


You Are Socks!

Cozy and warm... but easily lost.
You make a good puppet.
What Crappy Christmas Gift Are You?



You Are 12% Paranoid Schizophrenic

You're so far from paranoid schizophrenic...
you probably found this quiz to be quite amusing.
Are You A Paranoid Schizophrenic?

hell yeah!!!


Your Quirk Factor: 42%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it.
Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!
How Quirky Are You?



You Are 25 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
What Age Do You Act?

not bad!!!


ok... enough bullshittin' for now!
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Thursday, December 07, 2006,2:48 PM
Mother Fookers!!!!
Well Grrrrrrr!!!!
I was at a bar last night, having fun... sitting all pretty. Got up to dance.... there were some friends still at our table...
Next thing I know, I look over to the table, our friends had gotten up too....
I spot my purse, alone, on the table... and some dude sitting on a stool right next to the table.
I think to myself... "OK, I don't like my purse being all alone on the table, with some dude right up close to it... not good".
So... maybe 2 nano seconds later I get up to go get my purse...
"Hmm..." methinks... "It feels waaay too light". So I unzip it, only to find my wallet was missing!!!!!
It was effin stolen!!!! Mother F*cker!!! Some shitbag, low-life, scum of the earth, rotten, stinckin', poop-eating jackass had gone and taken my wallet from my purse!
Argh... could this piss me off any more!!!???!
Good job I only had about $10 in there.... so UP YOURS, Chicken ass!!!!

I of course called to block my credit card immediately...
I'm pissed off more about the wallet itself, dang it! It was nice!!!! Plus I had some pics of Michael in there.... oh and my gym card, the kind wiht the magnetic strip... I'll have to pay to get that replaced..... SHIT HEAD!!!
I hope this dude's nuts fall off!!!
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006,7:45 PM

Originally uploaded by sunshinecity.
I have had this picture posted on my flickr account for some time now.
In the six months that it's been viewable by the public, I have received so many comments, last but not least today's:

LaTur commented:

"As I experience it, appreciation of beauty is access to the soul. With beauty in our lives, we walk and carry ourselves more lightly and with a different look in our eyes. To look into the eyes of someone beholding beauty is to look through the windows of the soul. Anytime we catch a glimpse of soul, beauty is there; anytime we catch our breath and feel "How beautiful!," the soul is present."

by Jean Shinoda Bolen

Kinda makes you blush, huh??

You shoud see the other comments!
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,3:53 PM
A friend sent me a poem
She shared this with me. It's not about me or has to do with me in any way. I just really liked it and wanted to give it some exposure.

In the absence of love, there’s yearning for passion
In the absence of forever, one could ask for today
I want you to hold me and show some compassion
But if you command me, I’ll obey
In the absence of pure warmth, I feel your heat
In the absence of faith, you offer truth
Sure it’s skewed and cynical, but somehow sweet
The way you offer wisdom to my youth
In the absence of his touch, you offered yours
In the absence of support, you gave your voice
I always knew your heart was still hers
Love doesn’t always give you a choice
Two lonely hearts suffering at the same time
Both feeling disconnected
Crossing all of friendship’s lines
I wonder if this is what you had expected
When the two come together lost passion ignites
The clothes fall to the ground and down come the lights
Heat builds between them and gone are their thoughts
She squeals with delight for he does everything right
Gone are the worries and the struggles in life
Gone are the inhibitions that they thought they had
Gone are the titles like husband or wife
Gone are the feelings of lonely or sad
First comes the undeniable want to give and receive
Then starts the breathlessness and trembling thighs
The aching for him becomes too much to conceive
He sees that he's pleasing me by the look in my eyes
He enters my body and the world falls away
I feel his excitement with each and every thrust
It’s just him and I now in a sexual display
Completely consumed by lust
Hours go by and the want for more does not fade
Interludes of touching last from night into day
Desire still there as I get dressed to leave
Physical intimacy so gratifying, it’s just hard to believe.
It’s never easy to walk away from you
for you’ve filled me up in more ways than one
I don’t want to bid you adieu
For you are more to me than just simple fun
But I am not yours and you are not mine
We’ve accidentally connected without reason or rhyme
There are no rules for this kind of thing
I hope that this is friendship, but it may be just a fling
It started with a spark, and the gift of conversation
You coincidentally liked redheads and I, writers
Both in relationships filled with frustration
We were both lovers and fighters
Time blew by like it’s bound to do
Your relationship ended and mine did too
You were there when I needed you most
You invited me in and was such a good host
Thank you D. for all that you’ve done for me
I’m not sure I deserve it quite honestly
I’m all over the place emotionally
Thank you for knowing when to be there and when to let me be.

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Saturday, December 02, 2006,1:49 AM
More silly stuff...
Testriffic IQ test
Ohh this one is true!!!
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Friday, December 01, 2006,1:33 PM
Quiz time...
I'm into this gaming stuff...
here... how well do you know me?

Create your own friendquiz here

Go ahead, take the test!
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