Sunday, April 30, 2006,4:26 PM
I'm venting, take it or leave it - you have been warned!
As if it wasn't enough to have to sit here once again and wait for a phone call that never came... (soooo curious to hear the excuse this time...), now I get given another reason to be pissed off for.
My friend's been really letting me down lately. She's just not the same as she was, she seems to have aged all together, I don't know what it is, but it seems like my granmother has more of an exciting life than her! It's not like I expect to go clubbing every day, or go get drunk and have a night out on the town, but for pete's sake, you'd think there was more to life than go to the movies every thursday!!!! Don't get me wrong, I love going to the movies. It's that mid-week break that I really enjoy. Plus I find it a great form of entertainment... having said that, though, I feel like lately it's all we do - no wait... it is all we do!!!

I'm gonna be mean but I have to say it... I blame her boyfriend. This guy is a total bore. We've known each other for over 3 years now, but for some reason he still is shy and reserved! He never speaks a word, never makes a decision, never states a preference, never agrees or disagress with you! He is totally weird!
Sometimes I think he doesn't like me and my other girlfriend, which would be totally cool... I'd be fine with that (I don't really like the dude eiter... lol), but it's not even that. He is like this piece of human left over... he's an amoeba. (picture here). He just sits there and tags along when us four go out.

I'll admit, it's not great for a couple to go out with two other girls all the time. I mean, I do feel a bit sorry for this guy to have to hang out with 3 girls all the time... but see, if he'd just be a bit more part of the group, he'd find out that we can actually talk about other things than besides shopping or make up! (And believe me, I couldn't be further from that clitché!!!).

At first, when we met him, I'd try to do my best to talk to him. Ask him about his hobbies (he loves to draw, he's a great cartoonist), I'd ask him about his studies.... just generally try to get to know the guy, as anyone would, right? But he'd only ever answer in mono-syllables... "yes, no, ok, good, maybe, sure.." (ok, so maybe has two syllables, sorry!) I figured he was kind of shy... (didn't take much figuring out...) but sheesh.... after three years you'd think that the shyness would start to melt away!! Maybe he's just anti-social and has no friends! Wouldn't surprise me...
Seriously, me and my other friend always joke about him and wonder what he's like when it's just the two of them.... for example, does this guy take his clothes off to have sex? Do they do it in any other position than missionary?? Does he masturbate? Hahhaha..... sorry, I'm deviating, but this is just a bit of teasing me and Francesca like to do when we talk about him and our other friend as a couple... Ohhh I know... we're soooo cruel..... but it's hilarious nonetheless!!

So anyways, to get back to why I'm pissed off today.... well.... we were all supposed to out last night, the four of us: the boring couple, francesca and myself. Low and behold, we actually decided to go to a bar instead of going to the movies for once! This was really worth writing in my blog about!!! So, we arrange to meet up at my place. So come 10:30 I go down to meet them, and who do I find in the car?? Francesca with another one of our girlfriends!! "hmmm... so, where's the boring couple??" "Oh" says francesca "they sent me a txt message saying that they were staying home 'cause she has a headache". Now... normally this would be ok. I mean it can happen.... you don't feel like going out anymore so you change your plans, cool. Life goes on for the rest of us, right? True... infact this wasn't what bothered me. (Though I have you realise, she does this all a bit too often for it to be credible anymore, but hey.... at this point, their company isn't really missed!!). So great, us three girls go to the bar... and that was that. We had a fun night.

Now, to get to why I'm annoied. Monday is a holiday here, so I was figuring that we'd do something either this afternoon or this evening for sure. I hadn't spoken to my girlfriend from the boring couple at all yesterday, so was figuring to hear from her today at some point. I know that she's with her boyfriend (he lives in another city, so they spend each week end together, one weekend he comes down to Rome, one weekend she goes up to Massa), so I wasn't going to call her until maybe this evening.
So I receive this text message from her saying "We're meeting up with Francesca at 5 pm to go to the museum to see Modigliani, if you want to join us..." (an Italian artist from the early 1900s). See, now I'm not sure you can capture the tone in this translation, but basically.... her message implies that her and Francesca spoke at some point today, and organised to go to the exhibition. Now for some reason my other friend is convinced that I don't like to go to art exhibits (but she's wrong). One time, ages ago, she asked me to go with her and her boyfreind to see some exhibit, but I didn't feel like it that day, I can't quite recall what exhibition it was, nor why I didn't feel like going.... anyways, from that day onwards she just assumes shit about me, saying rather rudely to me "well, everytime I ask you to come along you always say you don't care!!!" Every time??? WTF?! Like, excuse me.... but what other time did you ask me to come along with you? She only ever invited me to go with her once!
Yeah so basically, she sort of invited me to come along today.... but it was more of a "Yeah, we're going.... I know you don't care to come, but if you really want to... you know where to find us" sort of thing.
You make think I'm reading too much into it, but trust me, I know her, and I know her tone.
So anyways... seeing as I didn't really feel all that invited, plus not forgetting that I'm pissed off anyways because someone didn't call... I don't really feel like going anyways.
I'm kind of pissed off with her lately, she hasn't been very friendly towards me and I can't be assed to hang around her and her amoeba boyfriend today. The day is all too nice and sunny to be locked away inside a museum and hang around the boring couple!
Plus.... I'm waiting to see when this other person remembers of my existance...

Ugh... life! You know, it would be so much easier having less expectations if life. I honestly think I sometimes expect to much!!
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Thursday, April 27, 2006,11:09 PM
I got me a Ticker!!!!

It's creeping up on me... I can feel it!!!!
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Monday, April 24, 2006,10:47 PM
When you feel like sharing...

I've been sort of day dreaming today... thinking about Michael a lot, about how much I miss him, thinking about all the things we'd be doing if we were together.
I don't often talk about him, simply 'cause I don't really like to brag about how wonderful he is, about how much I love him, and how happyhe makes me.
I miss him lots though, especially when I have so much time on my hands.
Today at work, the sun felt so warm on my skin. I went out to buy my lunch and I was just thinking about him. I call him every day to wake him. It's something I've got in the habbit of doing. I love to be the first person he talks to, start his day with a sweet "Goodmorning... I love you". He syas it's the favourite part of his day, bless him.
He's going to be pretty busy over the next two weeks, racetime is coming up, and that means lots of business for the catering company he works for.... and that means lots of hours for him, which of course is good. I really hope he can make it out here on my birthday. It's on the bigger occasions I miss him most. Being surrounded by your friends sometimes isn't enough.
I feel I'm mising out on so much without him near me... I know it's only a matter of time, but I'm so sick and tired of waiting.

Anyways, this post was supposed to be all positive... I don't want to let the sadness shadow my day today, because it was a good day. I was thinking about him as I was driving home from work, listening to Mary J. Blige on my mp3 player... her words made me think... made me realise that I am blessed because I have someone in my life who loves me, cares about me and does so much for me.
I jsut smile when I imagine him at work, hanging out at his new place, or cooking... doing his laundry, driving around in his car. He's such a sweetheart!
Wow, I do miss him... but there isn't anything I wouldn't do just to be with him again soon!

I can't wait to marry him... I like the sound of my married name!!

"No One Will Do"

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, woooo [2x]

Seen many men in my time
But none of them compare to mine
I ain't gotta knock on wood
To tell y’all that I got it so good
He's everything that I need and
All that a man should be
Put me on a flight if I wanna
Buy out the mall if I wanna

And I know ya'll heard before
These same old metaphors
My love is so much more
I don’t wanna change it
I don’t wanna do without ya baby
Cause he’s just above the rest
I must confess the best
Love that I’ve ever had
And I just gotta let you know this

Don’t let ‘em tell you nothing different
You’re the only one I’m needing
I don’t want no one but you
Baby no one will do
And what they say don’t even matter
They don’t know what I know about ya
I don’t want no one but you
Baby no one will do

It’s me and him through the wire
Cause when it comes to love he delivers
My personal UPS
I’m sending him an SOS
That I love him and I want him
And don’t wanna replace him with nobody else
I’mma keep holding on
I’mma keep the loving strong, ayayyyy



I don’t want nobody, nobody, nobody, no, no, no, no-body but you
I don’t want nobody, I don’t want nobody
You’re the only one for me boo ohhohhh
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Sunday, April 23, 2006,6:03 PM
two week summary...
So I started my job two weeks ago and... so far so good.
There really isn't much to it, I have to admit. Makes a nice change from my other job, though sooner or later I'll start to get bored.
I sit at the front desk all day. Make sure things are in order, remind the girls of their appointments, remind the boss of things she has to do... keep the place nice looking and in order... smile at the customers that come in and take their money!
All in all not bad!
To be honest I get a LOT of free time, so I have been able to catch up on my reading! YUP you heard me, I can actually sit there and read when it's quiet, especialy in the morning, when we've just opened, as my boss never comes in until like noon!

Sometimes I really feel so wasted just sitting there doing nothing, but then again I am concidering it my pre-vacation time.. sort of like a vacation, but paid! Hhehe....
Oh well... sooner or later I'll get the job I deserve... or so I hope!

Spring is really here... it's nice and sunny these days. Not all that hot yet, but during the lunch hours it is!
It's so horrible to not be able to do anything nice outdoors... I mean, I have my girlfriends I see every now and then, but that's about it. I don't know why all my crowd of freinds just dissapeared into thin air! Makes me feel so lonely at times... and worst of all, Michael isn't here. All these things to do, and no one to do them with. I always find it harder when the weather starts getting nice, I wonder why!?

He's supposed to be coming over for my birthday.... in just over a month, but he's recently had a lot of expenses... new house, and now even a new car. I was pretty èpissed about that one actually. Call e selfish, but he said he was going to wait till after his visit to get one. But he got a good offer and didn't want to risk waiting. I just know now that he won't be able to make it out here! I know it!
Yeah, you can tell me no try and be a bit more positive, and usuallyI would be, but if there's one thign I've learnt with Michael, it's the fact that if something can go wrong it will! I really hope I'm wrong.
We'll see....

Meantime, I'm back to work tomorrow.... good job I bought a new book!
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Monday, April 17, 2006,6:30 PM
Sometimes a song says it best...

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006,11:40 PM
I'm on the up...

I'm moving up in the world!!! OK... more like sideways, but it's a start... or a step in another direction, anyways!
I started a new job on Monday. Nothing fancy,l nothing cool or hip, nothing that actually suit my qualifications, but it's a full-time job, and at least I'm getting a full day's work in.

I'm secretary/manager/factotum for this beauty salon. Basically I sit there, look pretty and do nothing! It's great! HAhhahhah... Sooooo stress-free, I love it!

The owner of the Salon is a total nut job, she's one weird lady, but she's a hoot. She's always in a good mood, and she just makes you laugh.... she's soooo politically uncorrect, it's hilarious!
I think I'm gonna like it here!!
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Saturday, April 08, 2006,4:22 PM
Tomorrow our nation seals out fate.
Tomorrow is election day here in Italy. It's really no laughing matter, though I personally think our current prime minister is a clown and laughing stock of this nation!
He's a crook, interested only in maintaining his own wealth, and of creating taxe havens for the rich, like him. Don't get me wrong, the opposition is no joke either. We have among them people who are willing to put our security at risk by keeping close friendly relations with dubious nations in the middle east.
I'm not one to tlak politics. It's something I sort of despise... I hate people who try and convince you to sway one way or the other, but I am not very happy at all at what our country faces.
I'd like to think that the solution is somewhere down the middle. Unfortunately this middle ground doesn't exist and it doesn't look like it ever will.
I know that each side is bad for many separate reasons... and we say here, choose the less harmless option.... but either way you look at it, in all honesty, there really doesn't seem to be a less painful option!

I'm kind of torn... I haven't completely made up my mind. I was debating not voting at all, but I'd hate to just give away a vote! Then, I concidered anulling my voting card, by drawing something nasty on it, like some fallic symbol or something!! (insert evil grin here!) That's a big trend here! Always has been.... when people are disgusted with the way the political class is handling this country, you get lots of "fuck you"s and dick drawings on your voting card! Kinda funny really!!
Just imagine, being part of the election commity at your local voting office... imagine haveing to open up, each voting card, one by one and having to count how many votes go to to X, how many votes go to Y, and how many votes go to..."oh no wait, that's a dick"...

On a happy note... today is a gorgeous day. It's a bit too breezy for my taste, but nonetheless, the sun is really bright and the sky is so blue! I think I'm going to head out in a bit and go take a stroll in the park. I've been wanting to take some pictures lately, and no better place to do that than in the park. So many flowers in bloom, the grass is green and the birds are chirping!!
Tomorrow too, after I go vote, I'm going to take some more pictures! I'm lucky enough to go voting right near the pantheon!! So I think I'll take some more touristy pictures! Can't wait to see the outcome!!
Be sure to check out my shots!
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Friday, April 07, 2006,7:21 PM
Eight Words with two Meanings

1. THINGY (thing-ee) n.
Female...... Any part under a car's hood.
Male..... The strap fastener on a woman's bra.

2. VULNERABLE (vul-ne-ra-bel) adj.
Female.... Fully opening up one's self emotionally to another.
Male.... Playing cricket without a box.

3. COMMUNICATION (ko-myoo-ni-kay-shon) n.
Female... The open sharing of thoughts and feelings with one's partner.
Male... Leaving a note before taking off on a fishing trip with the boys.

4. COMMITMENT (ko-mit-ment) n.
Female.... A desire to get married and raise a family.
Male...... Trying not to hit on other women while out with this one.

5. ENTERTAINMENT (en-ter-tayn-ment) n.
Female.... A good movie, concert, play or book.
Male...... Anything that can be done while drinking beer.

6. FLATULENCE (flach-u-lens) n.
Female.... An embarrassing by product of indigestion.
Male...... A source of entertainment, self-expression, male bonding.

7 MAKING LOVE (may-king luv) n.
Female...... The greatest expression of intimacy a couple can achieve.

Male.. Call it whatever you want, just as long as we do it.

8. REMOTE CONTROL (ri-moht kon-trohl) n.
Female.... A device for changing from one TV channel to another.
Male... A device for scanning through all 375 channels every 5 minutes.

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Thursday, April 06, 2006,1:27 AM
Inspired to write
I often notice I have things to say when posting a comment in other people's blogs.

I was reading Heather's blog just yesterday... the post about Damien Rice, and her thoughts on music.
Well... I too had something to say.

I grew up surrounded by music, sheltered myself in it, drowned out the outside world, as I locked myself in its tunes.
There are so many songs I'd add to the soundtrack of my life!
Music is an amazing thing! I couldn't imagine my life without it!
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006,6:49 PM
'Cause I'm such a slave to the fashion!

I love spring!!! I'm feeling so happy, so excited and hyper!!
I'm starting to feel the warm sun rays on my skin. It makes me feel alive and sexy!
Yup that's right... you heard me... sexy!

Saturday I bought a new top, some new pants and new sunglasses... then got all dolled up and went out for the night!
God I love being a girl!
Can't wait for the summer to finally arrive!! I turn 30 in june! Oh.... watch out! I'm planning the party already! Hahh... you'll be missing out if you're not there!
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